pilot ( a random day in summer break)

Hello and welcome to my blog :)

I'm ila a 17 yr old trying to figure out things in life. Currently I'm a high school graduate about to join uni this year. 

I feel like everybody intends to tell story about school and college days but nobody has ever turned heads on the gap in between. In short it sucks.

I'm reliving the same day again and again. It's pretty boring. I want to try and do somethings but also i feel like I won't be getting a very mighty break such as this ever in my life so I don't want to be productive, I'll just leave it to my college days.

I got my results, it's not great but still i find it very rewarding considering the time, effort and tears it took. 

This blog is basically to pour myself out, some things are hazardous to keep it suppressed.

I fumbled so bad when I took pcb in 11th and 12th , if there's any of you planning to take pcb lemme just tell you God forbid not. I have always wanted to be a doctor so I easily thought that I needn't wrap my head around that useless math and instead focus on biology so I can crack neet.

Guess I was wrong. No I don't wanna be a doctor, doctor is a very demanding profession and im sorry I want to enjoy my youth. Not only that with no due offense I don't see myself waking up excited to do the doctor stuff. It's such a noble profession and i respect it with all my heart, it's just a character revamp for me that happened mid 11th grade that made me drop out of the neet class on a random saturday.

You might've heard of mosquito repellent but never a human repellent have you? Thats me. I have zero friends and social life. So a profession that includes surrounding yourself with people all the time is not my jam.

So I took a stand and told my parents i wanna do engineering. But I don't have mathematics!! I really fumbled huh. I hate myself that dumb 14 yr old made my life a living menace. Like a cherry on top my entire family hates me because I went against all of them to take pcb and now that I don't wanna do health sciences or mbbs they all are pretty pissed off and blaming it on me. What they don't realise is that I'm new to this too, im also a child who can make mistakes. The real question is will I make it out of this place. Idk stay tuned.

But still I did my research and found 2 engineering colleges that has got some exceptions for pcb students like a bridge course and such. So I hope that unfolds in my favour. 

Anyways i had a good vent, don't wanna go overboard with this on my first blog ever. So stay tuned to know me as i venture into uni and more. Stay blessed!

Bye for now